I apologize guys theres never enough for me to share.
ive created this blogg with the intending on sharing some if not most of my life experiences with the mass the hundreds maybe thousands of people that ive met in the past 23 years ive called my life, But ive come to the realization that its not gonna work that way for me. I tend to find myself drifting in my head, like most people. one thing that passes thru often is the idea of existence and purpose but thats another convo for another day. so what im gonna do is start thinking hard and write my blogg to myself. Maybe if i come to any profound understandings a switch would go off and start a chain reaction of enlightenment for my self and the people around me until shared contiousness is deciding factor in our shared human lives. starting now when ever something is on my mind ill write it on my blogg. If only i could type faster
Well i guess this is the perfect time to start. christmas day 2009. Im living in sweden now as most people know. Ive also celebrated my first real christmas (perfect). What most people dont know is that i was adopted by my aunt when i was 3(the year my mother died). That same year my aunt began a relationship with an islamic fellow who for 10 years i called Abu (father). My aunts words to me was this will be your last christmas..... the rest was bullshit. Anyway for ten years i lead the life of a coofy wearing, ramadon celebrating, no holiday, no bacon robot. I pretty much hated my life. skip a couple years and you get the complete flip. now my aunt seperated from abu and i again am at the mercy of another book of rules. Its no longer the quran. Now its the bible. Now this setup was no better. now i must go to curch 3 times a week pray when im told, sing when im told and even pee when im told. complete control. oh well maybe ill get some christmas presents now that im a christian. well maybe not.
The point behind all of this is that ive never had a veiw of the holidays from this side of the wall. But ive also got a veiw of the holidays that most americans dont get. I looked up christmas on wiki today and the first thing that caught my eye was the words pagen-scandinavia highlighted and underlined. Coincidence!
i live in the one place that celebrated christmas before christ was even born. It some thing that most people call yule, or jul. this was the celebration of the winter solstice. i give up fuck this shit...... you guys keep being mindless drones
